Right now I'm watching the Biggest Loser and it's an episode where people are looking back at thier journies....which is making me look back at my journey thus far.
Now, more than ever, I am certain that my success (i.e. working out consistently for 19 months, eating healthily for 7 months straight, running my first 5k and setting future goals for fitness like more 5ks and a mini-Tri next June, etc).... I am certain that I have found this success because my goal has been to be physically fit and healthy and NOT to lose weight. Now, do I LOVE that I'm losing weight and looking better and fitting into regular sized clothing?? OF COURSE!
The thing is that, when you aim to lose weight you see success in tiny ways and it's not super consistent. When you aim to be better at physical activities than you were the day before, you see success EVERY DAY! That success is a motivator for the next day, and then that day's success is a motivator for the following, etc.
I am so excited about how far I've come physically. I can see myself doing amazing workouts before I even do them. When I was watching Daris do the sand-hill challenge on Biggest Loser tonight I could see in his eyes what I know I get in my eyes at boot camp. I could see him visualizing that he could do it, that he could win, that he was strong enough, that he had what it could take. I could see him having that confidence. If anything that I've gained, I'm so glad that I've gained that confidence. I don't see myself as the fat girl anymore. I don't see myself as the girl who can't "keep up". I don't see myself as someone who lacks drive. I see myself as strong, confident, driven.........and that's a good feeling...... a feeling that can keep me going forever.
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